I will be sharing more on food, fashion & adventures on this space; basically everything that I wanna write about. I love to laze around .x

• Graduation Trip to Taiwan
• Two Blur Guys Food Review
• A day before the start of internship
• Kinoshita Japanese BBQ
• RIVER SAFARI!
• IPPUDO!
• PIQUE NIQUE!

Many things had happened... Some happened for a reason... Some are not...

I'm glad to meet many new people this year. Some of whom left an impact on me.
I'm glad I get to approach and talked to some people, for I saw their true colors, the one who brought me laughter followed by misery, and made me realize about something.
I'm glad that my folks made me defer my studies, as I realize how poor we are.
I'm glad I attended an event, it opens up my mind for a future that I could work for.
I'm glad that I chose to talk to an old friend, for I wouldn't be where I am supposed to be right now.

But strangely, I'm still not happy...

She's gone.
I still find it hard to accept. It's been 7 months. I missed your presence, your nagging, your voice & laughter. I'm sorry for everything, You said you hate me, but I know you didn't mean it. You said you worry about me, I appreciate and I know you will continue to worry about me. Sometimes, those memories haunt me. From that day... till the very last day. I remembered every single details. I wondered, if this is normal? I blamed all upon myself. It was way too fast, for me to accept. Never did I know... and, I love you.

You're gone.
I was intrigued, I made that decision twice whereas you had a choice. It was good. The next day you made your point. I get it. But it was all good still. From being formal to becoming more of ourselves, our conversations went well; joke, trolls, sarcasm etc. It was good. But, it was like studying quantum physics. Trying to study and understand but still, you can't understand. I tried to understand some people, but this is real tough. Maybe some people had a really tough past that they don't even want to open themselves up. Oh right, you did! I could see some efforts and bits of you. But at the end of the day, what do you really want? You said we're friends, twice indeed. But why does it seems like it's not this way? If we're friends, you will treat me like one. I tried. I told you before, to give yourself a chance. Did you? "I have to stoop to your level just to communicate with you, if not it'll be a disaster." < I hope you take back your words someday.
I don't know anymore.

-

I hate finance ever since young. I hate anything that is related to math. But do I have a choice? Apparently I passed all my papers in one go. Well... that's something.
When I came in, I was sceptical. Up till now, actually... I haven't earn anything yet so I can't tell my parents yet.
It's kinda pathetic that you can't even tell your folks about the job that you're doing... your future plans...
I am determined to prove everyone wrong, people who looked down on me & to raise my head high up and my middle fingers higher.
I am determined to do well in this industry, hopefully my future plans, it will still go as per normal.
I am determined to get the things I want in life.
I am determined not to be poor anymore, for I want to give my folks a better life.

Words are easy to say but actions speak louder than words. I'm dying hard to prove everyone including myself wrong. It's not gonna be easy, I KNOW, but it's achievable, it's doable.. It's the mentality that I have to set.

Unfortunately, my mood changes very quickly. I could be happy and be sad the next moment. Bipolar(?) I get distracted way too easily. My mind will get carried away quickly. That is why when i'm happy... I think about something else that made me sad. It's weird, I know... I couldn't explain it for myself. I haven't been talking much to my friends either. I'm just... not happy. Life is tough for me. lol I became someone whom I don't even know who I am anymore... just sucks

-

I believe, 2017 is going to be a good year. A year whereby there will be many changes to my life and to the people around me. To the people who think and said "I can never make it", we shall see. I am curious about my future too. Let the fun begins...

Many things had happened... Some happened for a reason... Some are not...

I'm glad to meet many new people this year. Some of whom left an impact on me.
I'm glad I get to approach and talked to some people, for I saw their true colors, the one who brought me laughter followed by misery, and made me realize about something.
I'm glad that my folks made me defer my studies, as I realize how poor we are.
I'm glad I attended an event, it opens up my mind for a future that I could work for.
I'm glad that I chose to talk to an old friend, for I wouldn't be where I am supposed to be right now.

But strangely, I'm still not happy...

She's gone.
I still find it hard to accept. It's been 7 months. I missed your presence, your nagging, your voice & laughter. I'm sorry for everything, You said you hate me, but I know you didn't mean it. You said you worry about me, I appreciate and I know you will continue to worry about me. Sometimes, those memories haunt me. From that day... till the very last day. I remembered every single details. I wondered, if this is normal? I blamed all upon myself. It was way too fast, for me to accept. Never did I know... and, I love you.

You're gone.
I was intrigued, I made that decision twice whereas you had a choice. It was good. The next day you made your point. I get it. But it was all good still. From being formal to becoming more of ourselves, our conversations went well; joke, trolls, sarcasm etc. It was good. But, it was like studying quantum physics. Trying to study and understand but still, you can't understand. I tried to understand some people, but this is real tough. Maybe some people had a really tough past that they don't even want to open themselves up. Oh right, you did! I could see some efforts and bits of you. But at the end of the day, what do you really want? You said we're friends, twice indeed. But why does it seems like it's not this way? If we're friends, you will treat me like one. I tried. I told you before, to give yourself a chance. Did you? "I have to stoop to your level just to communicate with you, if not it'll be a disaster." < I hope you take back your words someday.
I don't know anymore.

-

I hate finance ever since young. I hate anything that is related to math. But do I have a choice? Apparently I passed all my papers in one go. Well... that's something.
When I came in, I was sceptical. Up till now, actually... I haven't earn anything yet so I can't tell my parents yet.
It's kinda pathetic that you can't even tell your folks about the job that you're doing... your future plans...
I am determined to prove everyone wrong, people who looked down on me & to raise my head high up and my middle fingers higher.
I am determined to do well in this industry, hopefully my future plans, it will still go as per normal.
I am determined to get the things I want in life.
I am determined not to be poor anymore, for I want to give my folks a better life.

Words are easy to say but actions speak louder than words. I'm dying hard to prove everyone including myself wrong. It's not gonna be easy, I KNOW, but it's achievable, it's doable.. It's the mentality that I have to set.

Unfortunately, my mood changes very quickly. I could be happy and be sad the next moment. Bipolar(?) I get distracted way too easily. My mind will get carried away quickly. That is why when i'm happy... I think about something else that made me sad. It's weird, I know... I couldn't explain it for myself. I haven't been talking much to my friends either. I'm just... not happy. Life is tough for me. lol I became someone whom I don't even know who I am anymore... just sucks

-

I believe, 2017 is going to be a good year. A year whereby there will be many changes to my life and to the people around me. To the people who think and said "I can never make it", we shall see. I am curious about my future too. Let the fun begins...